Talk Tuesday: Finding Balance
I had no intention of blogging today, as evidence by the fact that this post is coming to you later than normal. But, sometimes you just need to have a stream of conscious thought post. This is it. Balance. Gah. It should be easy right? Heck no! Finding balance in life is freaking hard. And finding a way to find balance seems to be even more hard.
Ya’ll, over the past two years I have done a lot of soul searching and working on ways to find balance in my life. I left my 90+ hour a week private law practice job for less money and more time with my family, to well, find balance. I stopped trying to be everything to everyone to find balance in my personal life. I started working out from home to find the balance between sanity and saving money. I decided to finally invest in a business that changed my life in hopes of, yup, you guessed it, finding balance between paychecks.
However, I am tired. I am tired of trying to balance it all. Tired of trying to balance motherhood and career; motherhood and being a wife; being a wife and being a woman; trying to be a business owner and not annoy my friends & family; trying to grow a business without being that annoying person on social media; trying to maintain a Christ-centered life without wanting to throw my devotional across the room. Trying so freaking dang hard.
I am at the point where I want to throw in the towel on just about everything, and wouldn’t you know that its comes at the most stressful time of year? I want to quit my job and stay home with my baby girl because she asks my every morning why she has to go to school. It kills me. I want to quit my coaching because I am tired of the constant rejection and fear of alienating people. I want to quit cooking and cleaning because it seems to go unnoticed. I want to quit blogging, social media, and life because sometimes its just overwhelming.
But I dragged myself out of bed again, explained to E why she had to go to school and I had to go to work, I got dressed and picked up around the house, I checked in my my fit group ladies and took another look at all the things on my plate and then I prayed.
Today I am just going to try to balance hour by hour.